Thanks you guys for the information. I was in such a state of worry that I didn't even *think* about any programs based on income. I will do some research on the net and then call him and maybe talk to the girlfriend about helping him talk to the people.

The major blow to him and the thing that makes me more concerned than anything is for the past year he has done quite well without his meds, though HE NEEDED THEM the whole time. Then now it's all hitting him. He went into a rage at me on the phone because he says no one cares about him and I just calmly talked him down out of it. He knows he's like my oldest child to both me and my husband, so he was just being irrational and then after awhile he began to relax quite a bit.

I really think he needs inpatient. He told me the meds that worked the best on him were Zyprexa and Depakote, but he doesn't remember the dosages or anything, so I suggested calling and getting his medical records from the psyche hospital he was in at the time. The thing is I don't really think the info is reliable coming from him because at that time he was on a combo of 6 different meds. How does he know it was the Zyprexa and the Depakote? I mean, I know depakote can help with some of the symptoms of bipolar, but his primary diagnosis is Chronic Paranoid Schizophrenia. I think the anti-psychotic was helping him, to be honest, although he was still having visual hallucinations.

The last med he was on, he got for free, because they called it "experimental" phase or something along those lines. He was on Geodon. He did get it for free and he got free visits from the psychiatrist who was doing the I guess experiments....but then this is information coming from him, so I just don't know!

I think he didn't give the meds time to work, he made two visits to the pdoc and then quit, because he became paranoid that she was trying to poison him. It's so hard to be away from him. He knows he's sick, he told me so on the phone.

The money thing, we've btdt with him before. Sent him money for meds and he didn't get them, I believe he went and rented a bunch of movies instead.

I'm trying to talk them into coming back home. I really wish they would, I accept him and he's not accepted among the people he lives around. (GF's family) . I know that in our county there is a mental health system with a sliding scale, going by income. Since he has none, would he have to pay? they also do the samples, etc. for a certain amount of time.

I just feel so helpless, you know. I've always been able to help him or tried my darnedest, but now hes so far away and I can't help him. But I will get his meds. If he'll go to the doc. I told him I'd send him the money to see a doctor if he needs it, but I hate to. I just would have to trust that he'd do it, perhaps with the GF's help he would actually see someone.

Sorry to ramble on. I just know this pattern. It's not far from a crash and burn and this time big sister won't be there to help him. I just worry about that.

Thanks so much for listening to me!
You guys are a big help!

Take Care

(((((1day)))))) (((((((((((((Chris))))))))))))))) super big hugs for you!

Kimberly.