I have issues with alcohol...that much I can admit. Full on alcoholic I'm not so sure. I have been told a lot over the years I need to stop drinking, and finally this year this seems to be sinking in a bit. When I drink things get messy. But I'm just not ready to stop. I keep putting it off. There is always something to wait for. My current excuse is my birthday at the end of the week. I'll stop drinking after my birthday... but I know it won't happen. After that it will be other friends' birthdays, general nights out and just...there is nothing to do in this town that doesn't involve alcohol.

I need to find a way to stop putting it off..