I relate to what you all are saying.

I do find that I seek out triggers too. Mostly when I'm slightly agitated about something. I will dwell and dwell and read something that makes me just mad. Starts as nothing, ends with DESTROY mode.

Unfortunately for my poor body, it's aimed at me

No one else deserves to hurt, but I do. You know the thinking right?

I also do things when I'm feeling a little blue, like listening to certain songs that evoke long ago pushed down emotions and can go from smiling and functioning to sad and withdrawn and crying within a short amount of time. It's like sometimes my mind enjoys being jumbled up and not making sense. Or maybe it's that my body seems to enjoy the intense physical ache within me when I'm experiencing those very bad feelings. It's strange I know. But Wendy opened the flood gates when she stated "no justification needed"

Wow *wipes brow* that feels alot better!

(((((((((((((hugs to all)))))))))))))))))))
Kimberly.