I don't know what it is but I've been feeling it build for awhile. I think maybe it's stress or the whole roommate from hell situation that I went through and the move and work all combined is causing me to really consider self harming tonight. I have 10 months under my belt and I do NOT want to relapse, but I'm having a really tough time tonight. NOt thinking about cutting but definitely thinking about burning. Maybe I'll take my own advice and suffer through a cold shower to kill the urge...

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