Not tonight. It's 9:45 and everyone has to work in the morning. I told my sister that I know this will be a long night and asked her to give me a wake up call in the morning to make sure I don't oversleep. I just can't believe how ruined my innocent little babies' lives will be; they will be rocked to the core. All over someone that I still love with the whole of my heart but who has given up on me over my bipolar. That is specifically the reason he gives.