I hear you loud and clear. Which makes me wonder why I just spent the past 30 minutes pacing around my backyard practicing what I want to say to her tomorrow when I see her to pick up the paperwork she has for me. And why I started crying when I practiced asking the question I want to ask her. I hope she can give me a couple minutes to say what I need to say, even though we don't have a session scheduled it's just picking up papers. Suddenly I am irrationally afraid (again) that she's thinking of getting rid of me. Sheesh. So much for my being in charge of my work, right?