T,
Last time we had a kind of hard but really productive session. I feel like I've regressed since then. I feel like I'm going to let you down. I'm afraid to tell you I'm still feeling suicidal... I don't want to talk about it. I know I need to tell you, but I wish I could just tell you and have you not ask any questions.
Only three more days till I get to see you. God I hope I can make it.