I can identify. But I knew I was an alcoholic. I put off stopping for years and years. Also had one excuse after another. Mostly "this is the last weekend". Common sense won over when I knew I would lose my husband. He'd been patient for years. And I was sick! I couldn't tolerate the alcohol physically anymore, hadn't for a long time but still persisted. Almost 10 months ago I finally faced my husband and told him I wanted to stop drinking. Not knowing if I would (or could) or not. But I did. Perhaps it was easier for me than for others, but I have never looked back. I have not touched a drop since and sincerely believe I never will again.

Socializing became easier and easier. Now I don't enjoy watching those around me become steadily louder (and whatever else) as they become more intoxicated.

Stopping drinking was the best thing I ever did. I bought my husband a portable swimming pool for Christmas with the money I saved from not drinking. And I bought him a new wedding ring which I will give to him on our anniversary on Sunday. Also from my drinking money.

I have never looked back.

I wish you much strength. Just knowing there is an issue is a start.