Unfortunately getting a sleep study with our social healthcare system is super, super hard unless you something like sleep apnea that can be physically dangerous.

Sometimes the nightmares are so realistic that I can be conscience that I am in a dream and I try to wake myself up because it's so horrifying or I try to scream so my husband will wake me up. I had one of those last night. My husband said he heard me whimpering and woke me.

A lot of of nights I'm afraid to go to sleep because I'm afraid of my dreams. This obviously makes my already crippling anxiety worse.

I wish I could have a sleep study but things here are just so screwed up. I've been trying to get in with a psychiatrist for months to get on meds for my BP but you wait for forever to see any kind of specialist here. Ive been to the ER three different times over the past week for my mania. They wanted to hospitalize me but they had no room in any of the psyche wards so they just sent me home. Socialized healthcare is a nightmare. Especially for psych patients.