I have to be honest - I'm very interested by what you're saying here but I'm mostly left confused. Are you suggesting that it would be possible to mold oneself to adopt BPD and that life would be easier this way? If that is indeed what you are saying, that doesn't jive with me. I personally would never ever want to have any type of cluster b personality disorder.

What connection do you see between schizoaffective and BPD? There are certain similarities, like mood issues, but other than that these are two separate diagnoses.