I feel so freaking useless I can't even get a job unless someone does it for me I am to useless and retard and incapable to do it myself what a freaking pathetic and horrid existence. I hate myself for how retarded and useless I've become!!!!I JUST WANT TO CRY i always get here but I am too stupid to do anything about it and just sit on my freaking *** mopping about it like a pathetic idiot!!! I can't even tolerate my freaking self pity anymore? How do others help me when I am codependant and rely on them for my self pity that somehow keeps me alive in this situation.