I think I look ahead too much. But that is often the mental ways of an anxious person. To look at too much, take in too much.

I try to live in the present with things as they are. But it is SO HARD not to dwell. All my pets are old. My mom and dad are old.

I don't have the natural ability to zone in on a smaller portion of time. Or a smaller anything. I'm like a sponge. The world falls in on me.

I think it is possible to practice changing thought processes to deal with smaller chunks of life or whatever to call it. But I also think one can be born with the tendency to take in too much. To have no shields and no shelter. We work with what we were born with.