Hello again,

Thank you to everyone for the advice and prayers. I do really appreciate it. I have considered seeing a doctor before, but right now it just doesn't seem like financially I can take that hit and I am really scared about telling a doctor what I have been thinking about. I'm not sure that I could if I wanted to. I don't know if it's worth it anymore. I'm just so tired of trying to figure things out and so far nothing I have tried has helped so it just seems like nothing will... I do hope I can find a job soon. At least then, I would know I could make a living and not have to worry about finding somewhere to live in a couple of months.