This turns out to be harder than I thought. I thought that it was the repeat cycle of reasons I'm bad and worthless that was the problem. After making a list of some of these it's not that, it's the thoughts that go with the memories and the names I'm calling myself with them. So I guess I have to go back and try to put the bad stuff with the safely factual stuff.

This shouldn't be so hard. I have been through intense PTSD therapy and it was much, much harder than anything I'm dealing with now; in fact it is not traumatic memories. It is things like times my patients made (not serious) complaints about me or times I've done something slightly wrong. Not a big deal until I start beating myself up.

I am not sure I'll get to the feelings part before Monday. We'll see I guess. I kind of wish I'd set up another appointment this week.