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Old May 04, 2016, 10:28 PM
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Originally Posted by Lazarus16 View Post
Unless you killed someone or did something equivalent, I can guarantee you that nothing bad will happen to you, BeyondtheRainbow.
That's almost exactly what my therapist said. He said unless I was a serial killer. I told him there are still things he doesn't know about me (I've seen him 10 years and there are about 3 things he doesn't know).

Now I have to find ways to get him to understand that these "stories" are so mild compared to the PTSD therapy but it is the intrusive, paranoid, obsessive thoughts that HAVE TO STOP. The problem is I'm so ashamed of these things even though they so don't matter. One of them is running away instead of returning to a teacher demanding anyone talking the stairs go back up. My friends went up. I ran. I was 10. I'm now 40. LET IT GO (cue song). Instead I'm embarrassed, ashamed, guilty, etc. Those things lead to worthless, etc. And it's been 30 years, the teacher in question lost his license years ago for growing marijuana, the building doesn't exist anymore. And I'm 40.

So there's one down, sort of...

Thanks for listening and being supportive.
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