I wish you understood how much I want to be able to let all these emotions out and have you be there for me. I know I can't even want you to hug me or hold me like some people have, but if you could just hold my hand and keep telling me is safe and encourage me to trust it was ok and you could handle anything that came out, I think we might be able to go somewhere then. Right now I don't believe there is anyone in the world that can handle what's inside of me, even me so I have to keep it shoved away.