I only did the online thing because it seemed like an option. I've been flying solo for a long time and to tell you the truth I don't know if I'll change at this point. It's going to take a lot of energy to go out and date. I did something similar (answering ads in newspapers) back in the nineties and it was exhausting. I'll tell you one thing, anybody who I'm going to sacrifice my independence for at this point is going to have to be really special. Yes I'm reluctant and lonely but I don't want to share unless I'm ecstatic. Sorry if I sound like a snob but living the rest of my life alone is not that distasteful considering I've already done the majority. I know everyone is trying to help (thanks) but this might be too big of a step for me and even though it's hell sometimes I still have fairly high standards. So I'll quit rambling because all this has made me insane. Thanks again.
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