I am having a really hard time right now in my life, I feel so abandoned and sad, I was given up at birth and the people that adopted me were abusive, Every thing is all secretive, I met my biological mother but she refuses to let me see my family tree, She has a son that she kept but gave me up, Is any one else adopted and do you feel the empty feelings like I do, Why am I a secret like I don't exist to either of these family's, I also suffer severe ptsd