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I don't feel irritable all the time. But when more or less manic and when depressed I can be. Mostly when (more or less) depressed.
The irritability of depression has nothing/little to do with the irritability of mania.
Irritability when manic is caused by people not understanding that I'm right, opposing me or not listening carefully enough (mostly due to the speed of talking and lack of focus, rather tangential speech).
The irritability when depressed is because I don't understand myself, the reasons for my problems, and because I feel I can't express myself and be myself.
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Mania kills cells. Brain cells die. Memories become more reduced conceptually, making more efficient use of limited means. Memories shape our reality. Our memories are more or less split in two by abstractions, conceptual reductions. Mood states with memories, concepts, attached. Memories of pain and those of joy. It causes instability, changeability. Fearing that will leave an emptiness between pain and joy and a greater divide.
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