Thanks lolgrace.. I am sure that's what he is worried about also. I have just read so much about teaching people how to take control of their emotions and seldom seem to hear about people who could just let go. To me keeping control is all I've ever been able to do and I think I was kind of dreaming that this might be the first time in my life I would be able to let go of that control. I do understand where it's coming from though, and I hate that you had such a bad experience yourself.