I went to see the new pdoc this morning.

I don't know.

Yesterday I woke up in a bad depression. Called in sick. Stayed in bed almost the entire day except to take a shower and get food.

He was the 1st pdoc to ever ask so much about social/environmental/family/relationship issues.

I don't like some of the things he said.

He was asking me about T. I told him how I've been with T for two years. He said, "Do you know what the two best therapies for depression are?" He told me "cognitive and interpersonal." He asked me if things go well with my T. I told him, "Yes they do." He said, "Sometimes you can like the person but it doesn't always mean the therapy is helping you to alleviate things. You might want to consider another type of therapy."

I.
don't.
think.
so.



He said that he needs at least two days to think about what medication would best suit me, given that I have tried so many without relief. He said he will call me in two days. We have another appointment for Oct 2nd, but he says he would like me to be on medication before then. He is very interested in putting me on Lithium. I think he is %#@&#! crazy.

I feel very sad right now.

Seven pdocs.
15 medications
Three Ts

I'm only 26 years old. :-(

And now apparently, this pdoc doesn't think my therapy is helping me.

I sort of feel like calling T, but I sort of don't.