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Originally Posted by granite1
i had the strangest session tuesday . out of the blue my T got up and started typing on her computer and kept doing it . it made me so uncomfortable. she kept doing it as she was trying to talk to me . i just said i wanted to leave. and got up to go she asked me to sit down and stay. i did because i didnt want to storm out but i felt like she had other things more important to deal with . she has never done this before . i finely told her i was having a problem with her doing this and i would rather her let me leave instead of sitting there as she did this.she explained that she was just typing what i was saying . i dont understand why she didnt explain what she was going to do before she did it . it seemed like she wanted to make me uncomfortable and upset but i dont understand why . im counfused and am finding it hard to trust her . it was like she wanted to punish me for asking for an extra session . ill never ask again .she doesnt need to worry about me getting to close to her and doing horrible things to keep me away either . i know my place .
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Rather than shut down and refuse to trust her, why not ask her to explain to you why she was doing that? It sounds like she may have tried but you weren't able to really hear her because you were upset. It's okay to ask again. It's okay to tell her you wondered if she was trying to upset you. Communicate these thoughts to her and be willing to dialogue about what was going on both outwardly and inwardly. I HIGHLY doubt it was being done to punish you; that would be something the mother would do -- not your therapist. But tell her that is how it felt or what you wondered; it's great fodder for discussion. It may have "felt" like a horrible thing she was doing, but perhaps if you talk about it, you might understand why she was doing it. She has never done "horrible things" to you before -- that would be something the mother would do, not your therapist -- so this a perfect opportunity to try to really talk to her about what she was doing and how you were feeling.