Feel free to vent here....you are not alone. I do it all the time because it helps. Just writing and publishing is like throwing it out there to the world even if no one read it, it still is liberating.

The cries for help that goes unheeded. Shame. Sounds like you need someone else to connect with other than mom who is never going to get it like a pastor? Counselor? Crisis hotline?

Got to go, breaks over. I wish you well!