Yes and no about being happy with myself. The yes is that I'm hardly as overweight as most of my coworkers, but the no is that this isn't me. I had a lumbar fusion in Nov. 2015. I get pain and muscle spasm, which are to be expected. I run out of energy and have not hit the gym in about 4 weeks. A coworker said every time he sees me I look like I lost weight. I said look again. I've tried getting back to eating "properly", i.e. no junk food, but I keep relapsing. As far as the non-physical aspect of myself, I'm not happy. I have a short fuse and have begun to say things I quickly regret. Fortunately so far it hasn't caused any lasting damage. I blame Asperger's, but you can blame only so much on something.