I looked it up and I was right: no meds for OCD for me. The only choice would be a 2nd AP or more clozaril. We're trying to get me on less clozaril so I can function and I am out of AP possibilities which is why I'm on clozaril to begin with.

So I guess it's time to tell my therapist the entire story (even though he knows already I haven't admitted everything) and go from there.

And the things that I'm obsessing about we'd have to discuss the same way anyway so I guess not much is lost other than the feeling of an "easy" out and I never get those via meds anyway. I may have been leaving my hair/scalp alone more when I was on more MAOI a few months ago but I'm not sure. If I have to I can talk to my pdoc about that though. The issue with that is that it maxes me out and leaves no room to increase if I get depressed.

I wish meds were easier...