I am so sorry you are going through this and feeling this pain. Its a loss like no other. I am in the same boat. My therapist is closing her practice in a week and it has been so horrible for me trying to cope with loosing her. I had to tell her in person how much this hurts and I also feel like she doesn't "get" how much this hurts. I have also written her a letter I will give to her in our final session that says all the ways she has helped and how much she means to me. Its like 10 pages long but we have a long history and there is so much to be said.

I hope you can navigate through this as well as you can. Its hard to loose someone who means so much but try to remember that she will live on in your heart forever. Best of luck to you!