im fine........

think i not can talk to others about things....

i just dont know whats wrong...

im suspicious... but the confusion keeps me from realy knowing...
but i think much longer i cant deny some things...
just sad people will not like me any more... i dont have friends any way but...
atleast maybe it was by choice... if i scare myself sometime then i know i cant always hide things from everyone...
i dont know to feel happy or sad... maybe i know myself... but the world refuse me...
why its gotta be hard....

i must soon talk to someone about things... i cant talk with myself more longer too much because im just going to make it more confusing...
denial.... but im a kind person why im having problems....


i dunno if any you all ever been alone and not have someone to talk to...
can talk much with yourselve but you just dont believe many things sometimes....

im trying to not say many things to anyone... many things in my mind though...
i think im not ery stupid... maybe not sper smart but i dont really just accept stupid things without well explanation... but things i think lately i cant say...
never make my self feel so stupid before....

my confusion is too much... please why am i confused like this... dream.... dream.... its a dream.... it has to be dream....

so scared.... but no one know....
what im suposed to do..