my dear t: i just had a sudden and sad feeling that velvet has passed away. i am so very sorry if it is true. i wonder if you will tell me. you told me last weekend that she was not doing too well and she slept the whole time I was there. i wish i had been more sensitive to you and not so caught up in that intense-whatever-it-was within myself. i know you're supposed to be able to take care of yourself. but why could i not have had a little human compassion for you?! what kind of a monster am i? i am sorry t.