fuzzy I just wanted to comment about the state of confusion you describe. I wonder if the concepts you grapple with point both towards and away from each other at the same time. Many things are like that it seems to me, i.e., the more I try to move away the more I am drawn into simply because concieving it in the first place is a seed of its opposite... am I being confusing now? But anyway, confusion is a necessary part of learning, clarity will come if you don't give up I think...