I have a problem and I am wondering if this is normal for any one else, Yesterday I was having a really hard day, I was given up for adoption at birth and the people who adopted me were abusive and my adopted mother was a Narcissist so my growing up years were not good, I was bad at least I was told that all the time, Any way I am trying to do a family tree and my biological mother wants to keep me a secret and not let me see the family tree, To make a long story short I was crying and crying and I just wanted to go in the bath room and look at myself and also my face and just start slapping it, I don't want to die, I just want this gut renshing pain to go away, I feel so unlovable and unwanted, I have my children that love me so what is wrong with me, Am I really that crazy, Is it normal to hate yourself that much