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Old May 06, 2016, 04:44 AM
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Originally Posted by rainbow8 View Post
Is your session only 20 minutes long? What happened during the rest of it? To me, her response sounded validating, not off-putting. Why was it so negative for you?
I understand your fantasy. Sometimes I think I'm only my T's job, that it's a business transaction, even when she reassures me it's not. But when I act like we have a normal friendship type relationship, I get disappointed. I think our fantasies can be unreal, but we may be thinking in black and white. The T relationship is unique. It's business and personal at the same time. My T is NOT like my accountant! There's much more caring and love involved in therapy. There's a middle ground. At least that's the way I see it. I hope you have a better session next time.
My session is 50 minutes long. The first 20 were spent talking about the different fee options she had come up with. We also talked about my medication situation (which is a whole other story). Then the silence came. The last 10 minutes were spent talking about the silence or rather T talked about it and I just mumbled a few words here and there.

I'm not even sure if I want to continue with therapy. I'm still so angry at T but attached to her at the same time. Also, there is still that issue of payment. I have taken a photo of the options T typed out for me but I can't figure out how to attach it .
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