I really didn't give T anything to work with in terms of how she could help me so it really wasn't her fault. In fact, none of this is her fault and yet I still feel like it is. That was one of the things that it made it so difficult to talk. I felt all this anger towards her and it felt so unjustified and ridiculous that I couldn't express it. I was so angry that anything she said was wrong somehow and everything about her was annoying to me. Her face, her voice just everything.

I'm beginning to see now that the session wasn't a complete waste of time though. I now have plenty of things to talk about at the next session. I still feel conflicted about quitting and trying to work through this. Hopefully T and I can work through it.