The job I have right now has ruined me.

It's caused so much mental and emotional stress that I've had a physical ailment called POTs rear its ugly head.

I've even developed a phobia of talking on the phone and will attempt to avoid it even from family members. Just merely saying my work greeting in my head is enough to make me have syncope, extreme sweating, absurdly high heart rate, upset stomach, trembling and hysteria.

I've been out of work about 2 months but I'm still employed here and I'm terrified to go back. Yet my health is so bad now I'm incapable of going back to a job that was like my previous one.

I know I need to leave this job to get better but I'll lose my income, healthcare, etc. I'm in a nasty bind. I feel also like I'm dying slowly, painfully, and like quick sand I'm sinking.

Both of us need to leave but both of us probably realize just how hard it is to find another job that provides what our current one does...

What a conundrum.

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