Hi there hatewhoyou'vebecome!!!
Whew, that's a mouth full!!! Don't hate yourself. WE are all in this together. It's just a matter of getting the right dxs. for the right illness. I have been thru this thing for 30+ years
now and I'm just getting the screws in place!!! It's hard to do it with the wrong diagnosis, let alone the right one!!

I feel better than I have in those 30+ years. I'm not a hairball anymore. Whatever that is............that's how my kids discribed my mood. Little do they know????

I tried Wellbutrin, and that stuff made me psycho.............a Sybil in the making. Combative, irritable, and MEAN!!!
I said, hmmm so what's new? hahahahaha

Now I take the Luvox and the Lamictal and everydays a holiday. Ok, with the episodes, there's a few mechanical flaws to adjust, but on the whole, I'm better than I ever was!!

Good luck.
We are always here to listen.
drmr