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Old May 06, 2016, 09:14 AM
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Originally Posted by JustShakey View Post
(((Darkness)))
I'm sorry this is happening to you Reading your post makes me so glad I got my kids out when I did.
My ex used to threaten me with divorce allll the time, but he never had any intention of leaving, he was just doing it to scare me. Like your mom I used to not eat as well. As to how much pain one person can cause. Yeah, I know exactly what you mean. It is SO HARD to get out, and the longer you stay the harder it gets.
Stay strong Darkness. It is worth feeling for all the good things and good people that are out there (when I first left I was floored by just how caring people were, and continue to be). Numb has its place when you're in a bad situation. I speak from experience when I say it's probably better to keep yourself under wraps at home. Letting anything out opens you up to attacks. I've seen my ex do it to my daughter... Do you have friends at school that you are safe expressing yourself with?
Please try to remember that your parents' problems are what's causing all of the hurt. None of it is your fault.

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No. I don't really have friends. That is one thing we are trying to fix, to get me to trust and stop hating myself enough to trust others and get close to them. We talked a little about emotions today. Not as much as I wanted, but I told him that was my plan for next week and he agreed. He recommended a new DBT group for me. Says he will see how much it is and if insurance will pay or not. He really wants me to go.

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There are so many things wrong with me, and sometimes I believe there is more than what is diagnosed. I fear never healing, being left alone to crawl this heartless, cruel world. I hate myself so much, and sometimes, as much as I hate them, all I really want is a heartfelt hug. Will I ever make it through this thing called life? Or will I drown in the darkest depths of the ocean? Only time can tell. As for now, I just hide and I fear. This is, and will always be my life.
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JustShakey