:x i hope i wake up soon

i dont mean to be so weird and confusing, just trying to make sense of something you know :x
gotta take a break...
dizzy :/

cant figure out what to do or say sometimes... just spinn in circles..
seems like when i open my mouth things dont make sense.. i just like confusing myself i think, dunno why that would be enjoyable..
really think that i must be having just a weird dream... what a long dream
im fine though, im always fine..


just a little worried im going to do something to make things worse.. like freaking people out because i dunno what im doing.. if it starts to scare someone else its going to scare me.. im just trying not to think about it.. but its getting kind of difficult to ignore... some one has me in the seclusion room... in my mind you know, i dunno :/ just not sure what to think..
feels like ive been cut off from knowing stuff, but wth you are supposed to be able to know atleast whats going on around you..? maybe i had a nervous break down... my mind is shut down to protect me or something... or maybe i really am in a coma or something :/

maybe i just over analyze everything... but even simple things dont add up anymore.. broke my brain some how...

blah - im gonna just stay away, this is just mssed up..
sorry