Do you think you help people more or act more selfless because of feeling guilty about your BP (more than you'd otherwise do or others do)?

If not, do you help (some) people less, out of a feeling of revenge or similar, or because you don't think they are deserving or you have enough on your plate, no time to lose?

I alternate between the two. Revenge might be taking it too far. I don't have enough time really, enough time is wasted, but not helping someone or acting selfless may be more wasteful still.

I try to find a balance, but it's more like a pendulum. Typically BP, I'd say. But different: mania is at least in a way, selfless and sometimes/often too much, probably.

I have to force myself more, while that's clearly different from mania and depression, to primarily help myself. It's not exactly forcing myself either though. It's a personality thing. But I have another, slightly newer, personality thing suppressing that "better" thing.

Helping others is generally helpful during depression, but I'm also least perfectionist when depressed, so not much time to lose. My personality is rather useless during depression, but I can use some behaviour nevertheless: it just doesn't come naturally.

It's a puzzle.