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Originally Posted by divine1966
There is no need to judge or demand but she sounds like a rude person. Unless you enjoy rudeness what's the point? Does she have kids?
To answer if it's always gonna be like this. If she is this way at 41, that's pretty much how it's going to be.
One can be youthful and behave well. I am youthful at 50 but dont act like this
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I agree. Choosing not to judge, so to me she just "is". Trying not to label her, it just limits the experience. (edit: truth be told I came her to do exactly that. To judge her and "label" her as an N. I'm trying to let go of this type of reality. I don't want to limit myself, us.)
I saw her last night. I felt good, present. Indeed, she said a few things that sort of rattled me a little. Perhaps to get a rise out of me. Instead of reacting. I more or less observed my thoughts of fear (jealousy, possessiveness, anger, abandonment) and surrendered to them, let them go.
I just sort of let my fears run wild till the thoughts get so absurd I have to laugh at myself and flip the thought from fear to love.
Once I let go of my fear it was easy to see she was in fear too and was projecting it on me. Perhaps she tries to make me jealous because it will make her feel more wanted and desired? In short, a call for love. I guess I've made a choice to answer calls for love with a gift of love.
Does that make any sense?