My co-worker and I had an early breakfast meeting about an hour away from the office this morning. So we agreed she would pick me up in her car and we would go together, then she would drop me off at my place so I could pick up my car and come in to work.

Well, it turned out she had the day wrong on the meeting (and I didn't have a copy of the correspondence so I couldn't have pointed it out to her anyways) so we went out there for nothing. Then she suggested we go to breakfast, which was fine, but then we went straight home and she's going to give me a ride home at 4pm.

This was a big mistake. I should have gotten my car. I am exhausted and need to have been able to take a break mid-day and go home. With my depression I can only do so much and I feel like I am falling apart. I'm on deadline right now and have a submission that must go in today and I just cannot focus. Fortunately the proposal is just a formality, we've already been told we'll be getting the money, but I still prefer that thing I submit look good and read well.

I really don't know how to get through this day. It's excruciating. I have a meeting at 3, and I don't know how I'm going to feign interest.

I wonder if I should even be working...sheesh, I'm so discouraged. I feel like I can't do anymore.

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