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Originally Posted by JustShakey
I used to have friends before my situation isolated me. The memory keeps me going. And the internet. Internet friends are the best  .
It is so hard to trust after you've been hurt. Hell, I feel like I don't even know how, I start to panic around people when I feel like I'm starting to get to know them. I stop myself sometimes and think WTF? What happened to me?!!
Hang in there girl. And like my T always tells me, be patient with yourself.
The group sounds like a great idea. Hope it works out. 
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I hope the group works out, as well. But it just depends on insurance. I know how you feel, especially with my social phobia. I freak out whenever I get close to someone. I did that with my psychologist, and I left. But I managed to make my way back, and he is helping me tremendously! I'm trying to trust. And he tell me to stop being so mean to myself. Says he hates to see me do that as it is not fair to me. But it's so hard to not hate myself. Thanks for the support. This group is so wonderful! 
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There are so many things wrong with me, and sometimes I believe there is more than what is diagnosed. I fear never healing, being left alone to crawl this heartless, cruel world. I hate myself so much, and sometimes, as much as I hate them, all I really want is a heartfelt hug. Will I ever make it through this thing called life? Or will I drown in the darkest depths of the ocean? Only time can tell. As for now, I just hide and I fear. This is, and will always be my life.
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