Is there any chance that I could just forget that it ever even happened. The assault that is. I just wish that I could forget. I have been doing a pretty good job of it lately though. I have been telling myself that I was never assaulted and nothing happened. But then on Saturday my boyfriend would not leave it alone. He kept on asking me questions about what happened. It was really difficult. I then started falling apart because as I have said it previous posts, have been just doing what I thought I should do. I don't know I then realized that I guess it was wrong of me and that maybe I should just accept that it did happen and that I needed to stand up for myself more than I have been. I really just left his place in a hurry, started freaking out more and was considering just ending the relationship. But then I talked to someone where I live and they asked why I don't just talk to him about how I feel. So I decided I would, I wanted to do it that night though. So I called him and told him I needed to talk to him. But then he never showed up like we agreed on and then he disconnected his phone. But I went to his place and he finally let me in after 5 minutes. So I then explained to him how I have been feeling and how I thought and what I believed. I told him I wasn't really ready for what we had been doing. He was so supportive and it was really good to have that talk with him. Well I am just so glad that I did it. But I am still wondering, why can't I just forget I was ever assaulted? Why won't it just go away?

Jennifer