BP and my issues make me genuinely more accepting of others. Not guilt I don't believe. I just know how difficult life can be so its easy for me to understand how hard some people have it. Revenge? Maybe in the past, but not now. I would help anyone, even if I didn't like them all that much. I know what's it's like to need help and wouldn't deny it to anyone if it was a reasonable thing to do. I can only remember saying one thing out of revenge. Make that 2 things.... Actually 3 now that I think about it..., and all 3 times I wish I could take back. Even though they may have been true, they were not kind and I feel bad about it.... It's been years and still haunts me.