we cant diagnose\tell you what is going on with in you. what I can do is tell you in my location having "black outs" is not considered a dissociative problem.

here in my location dissociation is a reaction to a trigger...something happens to cause a person to feel numb, spaced out, disconnected and have memory problems. they dont just suddenly black out and start throwing things away and not remember doing it.

let me give you a few examples of what dissociation means in my location...

sometimes when I dont get enough sleep i feel like I am not all there, a drugged like feeling or waking up only half way. (this is normal dissociation)

sometimes at work when I get stressed out (trigger) I start feeling flat, numb emotionless (this is normal dissociation)

sometimes when my wife and I are traveling and we havent had a break \rest stop the movement of the car and passing scenery (trigger) makes me feel numb, flat, spaced out (this is normal dissociation)

if you were here in my location in order for what you posted to be called dissociation there would have to be a trigger that caused you to feel numb, spaced out, disconnected.

you can read about what dissociative amnesia (not remembering things) is in my location is with in the links at the bottom of my post.

what else I can tell you is that here in my location we have many mental, physical and normal things that can cause a person to do things that they dont remember doing. if you google this you will find millions upon millions of medical\physical, mental and normal things this can be.

again we cant make a diagnosis we can only post what things would be if in our own locations. to find out why you "blacked out" and threw things away and not remember doing so you will have to contact your own treatment providers (your own doctors, therapists, psychiatrists...) your treatment providers can help you sort things out so that you are not so confused about what is happening to you.