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Originally Posted by Crocus
I'm in a bit of a dilemma. I don't know what I can do to myself that will hurt enough to be sufficient punishment for being a worthless waste of time, but will still not be noticeable to anyone else.
No, I know that that's not an approved topic of discussion and I'm not asking for suggestions or intending to say anything more about it. I know I'll end up doing nothing as always. Because I am a coward, too.
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I'm sorry you feel that way. 
I know it won't help if you are anything like me, but I don't think you are a waste of time or that you deserve to be punished. And I don't think you are a coward. Just posting on here is courageous. I know. You don't believe me. But I just felt like telling the truth. 
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There are so many things wrong with me, and sometimes I believe there is more than what is diagnosed. I fear never healing, being left alone to crawl this heartless, cruel world. I hate myself so much, and sometimes, as much as I hate them, all I really want is a heartfelt hug. Will I ever make it through this thing called life? Or will I drown in the darkest depths of the ocean? Only time can tell. As for now, I just hide and I fear. This is, and will always be my life.
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