thank you for your replies Fuzzy.

I'm puzzled how you think you don't "belong"--- why, there are so many posts to you in kudos-- many many people know you and care about you. I know I can't say that--not that I'm feeling sorry for myself-- just speaking the truth.

You are very much cared about here and I think that is a wonderful thing. Please try to not be so hard on yourself.... I know it's easier said than done-- maybe you're in a situation like I am-- my IRL relationships are abusive and I'm trying hard to change/distance them in hopes to be able to pickup the shreds of myself that are often strewn all over the floor.....

Such inner-turmoil today--
I caught myself driving AWAY from my work, instead of towards work-- don't know WHAT I was thinking!

Anyway, you are valued in my view-- hope you know that.

Fuzzy--

mandy-- ps-- hope you are feeling a bit better today-- sorry it took me a couple days to reply.