I think I understand how u feel, I've been having thoughts and dreams about what it would be like if I could be with a female. My bf knows I have had these thoughts but he doesn't know they're ongoing. I know he wouldn't like the idea of a 3some and I wouldn't want to have one either, I think it would feel strange. I just want to experience it alone with a female but I feel that I would be cheating on him. Not sure what I should do.