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Originally Posted by smartiesparty
I am suffering a lot from sex-related OCD thoughts. I had been intimate with my boyfriend and since then my head is calling me bad, sl*t-shaming names and it doesn't stop. Also I keep being paranoid about being pregnant, though I'm on birth control and we always use external protection. The googling doesn't help; every woman says they got pregnant despite using 9 types of birth control and every ache, nausea and twitch seems like a pregnancy symptom.
It is making me exhausted and has additionally thrown me into a deep pit of depression again. 
I feel like I am filthy and disgusting. It just won't go out my head. I have sweat outbreaks while these thoughts are invading my head. Even am convinced I had a 'conception dream' type of dream.
The thoughts just won't stop and my number OCD is coming back again (touching things several times, scratching my skin to blood)
I can't focus on things like cleaning, cooking, reading. All is revolving around how filthy I am. I don't know how to cope. Please help |
I would definitely see a psychiatrist for treatment with medication. SSRI drugs (Prozac, Paxil, Lexapro, Zoloft, etc.) can help balance your brain chemistry so you are not obsessing so much and your anxiety level can go down with them. Benzo drugs can help with the anxiety (Xanax, Klonopin, Valium, etc.) at times when it gets more intense.
I take a supplement that helps my OCD thoughts A LOT: NAC (N-acetyl cysteine- sp?). I take 3,000 mg a day when my obsessive thoughts are bad (mine come and go with hormones every month).
If you are already on meds, I would go back to the doctor and tell him/her about your recent symptom changes.
I would also see a therapist or psychologist for CBT (cognitive behavioral therapy) to work on the compulsions and stress management.
Best wishes, and I hope you feel better soon!
P.S. Just for some reassurance, you likely NOT pregnant and you are NOT dirty or bad. Sex is a beautiful, wonderful thing when shared between people who care about each other. The thoughts you are having are OCD thoughts, not reality, and they can be changed with proper treatment.
