dear t i am feeling my feelings tonight but they are not about you for once. at the dinner tonight honoring the graduating seniors in the manufacturing program my son is part of, he won the "Leadership" award and the teacher said as he announced it that my son is 2nd in command of the machine shop at school, he teaches/mentors other students, monitors how others are using the machines, helps with projects, helps teach the class, etc. I am so proud. He is SUCH a good kid. And I feel like I am not deserving of being his mother. I have learned enough from you to know that the best thing I can do is allow myself to feel the feelings this evening, alone, and trust that they will pass. Even if I have to cry myself to sleep. I am going to feel my way through them without your help.