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Old May 07, 2016, 02:10 AM
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I have issues with hyper sexuality too. Right now I'm going through a serious manic episode and all I want to do is have sex with my husband. It makes the rest of the world go away, stops the racing thoughts and it just feels amazing. We are in a BDSM relationship so there is no shortage of excitement in our sex life. But I do always want to try much riskier activities when I'm manic. Last night he choked me until I passed out, more than once.

Being in a stable relationship is good for me because when I was younger my hypersexual behavior was a lot riskier. At least now I'm just doing it with my husband. I used to go to a lot of metal shows when I was manic and I'd get drunk and almost always end up in disgusting club bathrooms having sex or taking my clothes off to get backstage and meet the band (which was usually successful) then I'd drink more and black out. I'm not that way when I'm not manic. I'm usually very cautious about taking risks but not while manic. I have serious impulse control issues. A one point I worried I was a sex addict until I got my BP diagnosis then it all made sense.

So I totally understand what you're going through. I never want to give it up when I'm manic either because just like you it stops my agitation and my anxiety. It's like taking a break from all the negative things that come with my mania.
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