Thanks for the comments. I guess that was a long intro...sorry. Anyway, I definitely don't think he is doing anything to remotely encourage these feelings. He has excellent boundaries. I am just afraid of getting too attached myself, and scaring him into referring me out to someone else. That would be awful. I also feel a little creepy that I have these father-hunger feelings toward him but simultaneously wonder what kissing him would be like. I wonder if those two sorts of feelings often get mixed up for people, or if I am a little freaky like that. This is certainly not the first time that has happened, and it tends to make me feel like a bad person. He's very smart and professional and I'd like to not "ghost" him like I have other therapists. But I need to be able to shed this attached feeling if I am to continue. There is no way I can bring up the attraction thing to him. I'd die. His office is in his house, and his wife is there (she constantly coughs and sneezes throughout my sessions lol, and this oddly makes me feel very safe as I know there is no possibility of anything untoward happening). Anyway, the idea of having that conversation knowing that she is there gives me the willies, and I bet would make him uncomfy too. I really just want the feeling to go away. I feel like the more I focus on it, the worse it gets...ugh